Lately I’ve been feeling more and more exhausted as things get really busy in my business.While I’ve been incredibly productive in some ways I’m slacking in others. For example,
- reaching out to dozens of clients, leads and colleagues
- filling my practice, serving private clients and getting great results
- frequently messy house that desperately needs routine cleaning
- complete failure at cooking meals
- spending time with the dogs at the park a few times a week
- haven’t gone back to the gym since their jacuzzi broke a few weeks ago
Most of the time it feels like I’m failing in far too many areas than where I’m succeeding. On the weekends that I work for 2 days it feels overwhelming and I go into Monday exhausted. If I take the weekend “off” to work on photography, sleep in or work around the house then I feel guilty.
Last night I went out to a birthday party and hanging out with friends old and new was a great break from the computer:
Each week I make a point to meet up with my friend Ana,
so we can work on our businesses and record videos together. That feels balanced and I always have more energy after two or three of us get together for a few hours.
While I have dozens of half finished projects at home I lack both the time, money and energy to complete them. Which makes me feel like a slacker.
It’s tempting to compare our low energy times with the brilliance that other bloggers put out there. Most people post about the great things, a dinner out, new purchases, great experiences. Even in the Facebook economy we don’t talk much about the mundane.
So what do you do when everyone out there seems to have a more fabulous, exotic and productive life?
I prefer naps.
In fact, I was convicted lately when I jokingly replied to someone who asked how I get it “all” done when I said “I don’t sleep.” Which could not be further from the truth. I sleep at least 8 hours a night, sometimes more.
Now, I justify this intense time investment because 2-3 mornings a week I have vivid, clear dreams about my client’s businesses, often creating marketing campaigns and implementation plans when I’m asleep. These mornings I wake up inspired and writing ten miles an hour to get it all written down.
But, the truth is I’m not productive because I don’t sleep. I can be productive (in some ways) because I don’t watch tv, I don’t go shopping and I don’t cook or clean much.
I’ve known and accepted for years that I’m an incredible Type A personality. Even when I take timeoff, like the party last night, I end up doing something more. Taking pictures to add to my photography blog, networking around my business, writing myself notes of things to accomplish when I get home. Yeah, even my relaxing time at home is spent researching, working on projects or gardening.
I tell ya, it’s a sickness. When I was 14 I came down with mono and spent an incredibly boring 3 weeks at home recovering. Torture, absolute torture.
So I guess I’d rather be busy, even when I’m looking at all the things that haven’t been done and stressing myself out. On days like today I just do the next thing I can which means right now I’m going to wash the car.